in need of a little motivation

Have you ever noticed how many things there are that you hate doing but you feel so good once you are done? I would assume these things are different for everyone, but for me two of the biggest have been hanging over my head lately and I wanted to rant about them! I spent all weekend cleaning, and I hated doing it, all week I was excited to do it because I wanted to have a clean place, and all weekend I did everything I could to avoid it. But to be honest, I am LOVING the aftermath, partially because I did it and I am done, and partially because it looks sooo stinking good! My life is in less chaos and everything seems so much more upscale or something… I don’t know what I am trying to say other then rub it in your face that I have a spotless condo! Haha

The second thing I think is a common feeling. I HATE working out…. I really do just plain hate it. I have always wanted to be one of those ppl that doesn’t feel like their life is complete until they have taken their daily jog…. I sit at my desk everyday pumping myself up that it is going to be fun and once I get used to doing it, I truly will start to like it. But when 5 o’clock hits I find every excuse in the book as to why I just don’t have the time or energy…. Have I ever mentioned that I can justify ANYTHING to anyone… it is one of my strong points, and totally gets in the way of my working out. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MOTIVATED?!?!?

you are my sunshine

I LOVE sunshine. This is something I am just (at 23) realizing about myself. All growing up I never noticed a change in mood because of the sun, and the four years of living in Colorado I just took it for granted, but now that I live in Oregon again I am realizing how amazing it is! I swear I am a different (better) person when the sun is shining…. I want to be out and about doing fun things and being productive…. I get sooooooo anxious sitting at my desk when I can see the blue sky outside…. I just plain love it. Once I came to this realization I wondered should I be living somewhere else, I love Portland, it truly is a great city, but it does rain…. A LOT and after this year of snow Colorado is sounding pretty good. But I think this feeling comes from appreciation… The sun comes as a surprise it is like a little gift from god.

oh Audrey

I believe in pink, I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.
-- Audrey Hepburn

Earth Day

I really wish I was born with a green thumb…. I have never been any good with plants, but I LOVE having them around. I have one plant that sits by my bed and I have had for about three years, and another that has lasted almost a year and then I have had about 50million others through te years. And today I am adding a few more to the list. I figured getting new plants for my deck would be the perfect way to celebrate earthday, and spring for that matter! So for the time being I have a great looking patio and it makes me sooo happy! Anyone have any tips… a little advice… anything?

makes you think

Last night I spent some quality time with a good friend. We always have those conversations that make you think… you know the kind that make you look at your life and love it while you want to change things, and appreciate things, and take more adventures. We have a lot of things in common, but what makes us most alike is our family. We are by no means related, but we have a LOT of things in common when it comes to how we were raised and the important of family in our lives. We are both freakishly close to BOTH of our parents… we both talk to both our mom and dad at least once a day. We are both completely spoiled (and admit to it) with attention and love from our parents… seriously they would do ANYTHING for us, the kind of parents that would fly to wherever we are at a moments notice because we said needed them (whatever the reason, or whatever is going on in their lives at the time). We were also raised far away from extended family and have “fake” families that our parents have built for us; these are the ppl we have spent every Christmas, New Year, Thanksgiving, Easter, and birthday with…. The ppl we know are so proud of us whenever anything go right in our lives and the ppl that will support us whenever anything goes wrong… Talking to my friend ALWAYS makes me to glad and feel sooo lucky for having so much support and love around me.

The main topic of conversation last night was that her grandmother had just passed away. This is something her family had been preparing for months and there is NOTHING that she regrets about her relationship with her, but it is always hard when that sort of thing happens. It got me to thinking about my relationship with my grandmother, and everyone else for that matter. I am close to my grandmother, I talk to her on the phone and write her letters…. But in all honesty I don’t feel like that is enough, she has done SOOO much for me, and I know she wants nothing but my happiness in return. But my goal at the moment is to find a way to share my happiness with her…. Not just talking to her and sending her pictures like I do now… I need to find everyway possible to do what I can so that I too can have no regrets when I have to say goodbye.

fmylife

I just got a new adorable sundress…. And today it is 80 degrees out…. In Oregon…. In April. Maybe you aren’t from Oregon but that is basically unheard of, and the perfect opportunity to break out this cute dress! Do I did, I paired it with my favorite brown riding boots and big sunglasses and my new favorite trend- a side pony! I always wear conservative and cute undies under dresses, just in case someone gets a peek so today I wore a new pair of hot pink cotton “cheeky” panties (now annoyed with because the have spent the day riding up). Even with the annoying undergarment situation I have been strutting my stuff, feeling adorable, as most girls do in my new and carefully planned out outfit- I went out to lunch have made extra trips to the printer- basically I have made myself well noticed. Until I discovered that my dress is really thin and my hot pink undies are on display to the world! Man, that sucks! Isn’t there some sort of girl code to tell someone that they look like a total fool?